My Story – Because of the Loss of my Mom’s Love for Me
My mom passed away a couple of years ago during the Winter time. I was very sad and went through a lot of grieving for months on end. This was a big loss! Often I woke up tired and was exhausted by late afternoon. Didn’t feel a whole lot of joy or even a neutral state of mind. My tears dried up after a while and I felt I didn’t even have the strength anymore to cry. My friends took me for long walks to talk, but I didn’t have the energy to talk a whole lot. Call it depression by sheer exhaustion.
Then came Spring and I was still not my normal self. Actually, I gave up becoming my normal self all together at that point. Somehow, I started writing in my journal. I wanted to get clear on why I was so sad about my mom’s passing. What is was that I experienced as a loss. My mom and me were usually arguing and battling it out in some sort of conflict, why in the world would I miss this, I was wondering.
By writing a lot of pages in my journal, it dawned on me that I truly felt that I had lost the chance of make up for all the arguments we had, for saying that I was sorry, for the moments we could have enjoyed love between us, instead of negativities. For the loss of my mom’s love for me.
In the process of writing I found comfort and a peace of mind. Things started to make sense to me, somehow. I kept writing and writing and within two years, I published a website specially about mother-daughter relationships. I felt I did my mom proud with this!
In no time other women started sending me their stories. Touching stories, painful stories for of suffering, dramatic stories, and cute and heartwarming stories too. I was truly amazed by what women experience in their mother-daughter relationship and that they were willing to share their stories, some very intimate stories.
Out of wanting to give tips to mothers and daughters who struggle to improve their mother-daughter relationship, the concept of writing an eBook was born. The eBook was published in 2013.
Its stunning what can grow out of this grieving and sense of loss and it is equally stunning how sharing with love heals all this pain coming from this loss.
I am truly grateful for being able to contribute to improving mother-daughter relationships!
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