Little Chicken Miracle – Part 2
Last time I told my story why I was not feeling that hot (it sucks!) due to my circumstances:
- I got laid off
- My husband had an affair and wanted a divorce
- I hurt my back badly
- I lost my savings due to the stock market
- My Mom got a series of heart attacks and passed away
In my darkest moment I was physically exhausted, in a lot of pain, alone, homeless cause I couldn’t pay the rent anymore, penniless, and with a broken heart. I was numb. I was a big nobody. A worthless little stupid chicken. An insult to chickens.
And in my darkest moment, I didn’t care anymore. In the eyes of my Mom, now deceased, I was a total failure and nobody.
It seems nothing could ever happen to repair that unless a miracle would happen.
This is the miracle: I was totally immersed into this state of being a failure and being a nobody. Out of that state and total acceptance of being a failure and an nobody, my whole system reversed. My body reversed, my cells turned around and an the atoms that make up my system!
IT DAWNED ON ME:
All that my Mom taught me, was a lie!
It was a lie because I am totally the opposite of what she made me believe about myself:
- I am not a little chicken, I am a big bird!
- I am very worthy!
- Life is not to be feared, but lived and loved!
- I should take calculated risks and go for it!
- I should stick to my intuition and what my heart tells me!
- Love is unconditional!
- There is nothing wrong with me when I start thinking for myself!
From that moment on life literally changed in a day. To make a long story short, a friend needed a house sitter because she got a job elsewhere for 6 months. My divorce finally came through and I got a small settlement out of it. An old colleague recommended me for a new position, an offer I could not refuse. Then two school friends wanted to start a business and asked me to be a partner in their business. I agreed because it felt good and I was excited. From my job, I started saving money which I invested in our new business.
Now I am well under way to build a new life. An adventurous and satisfying life. My life!
If it was not for my Mom and what she taught me, I would not have made the huge break though in mind of who I really am. I am exactly the opposite of what she has taught me I was!
Thank you Mom!!!
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