Relating to Happiness?
Holiday season is coming up. Family gatherings, being together, sharing a big, special meal, feeling connected like a real family…..This supposed to be normal and I think most people have a family and warm place to go to coming months.
For me….I don’t know. My family, my mother… they don’t make me feel warm inside at all, rather thinking of my mother gives me a cold feeling inside my chest.
It’s so sad.
To see a lot of happy people but I just don’t understand how they get to feeling so happy. It’s hard for me to relate to that feeling, to this illusive thing called happiness.
I wish for me to feel more happy, I crave it, I long for it, yet I know I just don’t have that family that makes me happy.
Maybe I don’t deserve it. Call it bad karma. Maybe it’s just not in the cards for me.
Yet I wish, I wish, oh I wish, I had this warm mother who would be able to like me, and take as I am. And maybe love me?
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